Finding God in the Hard Places

Lately, I have heard of quite a few deaths. Especially in the past week. From my experience, losing a loved one is probably the hardest thing you could go through. It hurts me to sit back and watch my good friends hearts break from losing family members, or friends, or whoever. But, there is beauty in the heart break because we serve a good God! When my mother died I focused on everything and anything negative. People would tell me that everything was going to be okay, or that something good will come of this. Being a nine year old little girl who just lost her mother, I thought they were all lunatics. But, four years later God showed me His goodness, love, and faithfulness. All of the questions and confusion I had been dealing with just....vanished. Even though it hurts so much when you lose someone you love, and you are confused, and the only question you can ask yourself and everyone around you is "why"? The pain and suffering that the ones we loved died of, is gone. Vanished. They are celebrating a new life of being healed, with JESUS! How great is that! There are no more tears, and pain, and medicines, and doctors. They are free. They might have lost the battle of cancer, or cirrhosis of the liver, but they won the victory of going home to be with the holy one, the healer and protector. And that right there, is beautiful. I wish I would have known all of the good things God does and all of the truth when I was nine. But, it is just apart of my story and watching the beauty that God creates. Sometimes, you just have to look farther ahead and stay positive rather than looking back into the past and focusing on the negative. I miss my beautiful mom everyday, but she finished her work here on earth and it was time for her to go. I'm blessed to know that she is with Jesus in heaven and I will join her one day as well! I encourage the ones who read this who have lost a loved one, to focus on the celebration of their life, not their death. You just have to find God in the places where it seems impossible, I promise, He is there.

Listening and Rejoicing.

Sometimes, the bigger picture that we imagine, isn't as big as we thought it was. Sometimes, we just think to much. People, and I as well, look for everything we want way out of reach, when really it is right in front of our eyes. Life is way more simple than we try to make it to be. Jesus died because He loves us. That's it. I personally, search for so many answers and have to much confusion running through my head and my own personal thoughts when I should just be listening to His voice. Listening is something I need to learn how to do, and so do others. Jesus said, search for me and you will find me. We can not do that by ourselves. We need to listen and obey. I've been spending too much time on me, others, and trying to please others when I should be pleasing Jesus, my big brother who saved me from Hell and hatred. HE is the reason I rejoice!